Tearing me down

On yesterday I experienced some negativity

about a post... The one thing about social media

is that you have to have thick skin.... When

posting on social media you open yourself up

to criticism and negative comments... I assume

the internet gives people courage to say things

they wish they had the courage to say to your

face... "STICKS AND STONES MAY BREAK MY

BONES BUT WORDS WILL NEVER HURT ME"

WHO TF SAID THAT??!! WHO TF CAME UP

WITH THAT SH*T??!!! THEY A F**KING LIAR!!

THAT SH*T IS NOT TRUE!!! WORDS CUT!!!

WORDS DO HURT!!! SOMETIMES I'D RATHER

US FIGHT THAN YOU SAY CERTAIN

ISH!! SOME WORDS CUT SO DEEP YOU CAN

NEVER TAKE THEM BACK!! NO APOLOGIZE

CAN UNDO CERTAIN WORDS... I have been

beat down so much throughout my many years

of being on 'Earth... I was broken.. No, I was

f**king shattered and had missing pieces....

I built myself up... I am building myself up....

Yesterday a person tore me down with their

words and it hurt... No, I'm not ashamed to

admit that.... I don't understand why men

feel the need to treat women so bad.... Does

it make men feel bigger than what they are??

I mean if I was a man standing 5'6 looking like a

Muppet maybe I would be a loudmouth as* hole

to people too... His words cut because of my

struggles.... Body dysmorphia.... low self esteem

How many of us women are going through at 30s Crisis?? Eff mid-life crisis... I had an identity crisis.I was aware of my trauma, learned my triggers,addressed my fears, healed the broken me....

Built myself up brick by brick.... well I'm soft now,

so it's....uuummm... marshmallow by marshmallow..

Some days I feel badder than Beyonce and Trina...

I know I have the body 97% of women want and lay

on the table for.... But going through health scares

I lost a lot of weight and I probably won't gain it back

or keep the weight... I am truly just grateful to be alive

It is a blessing to be alive, last year I thought it was

over for me.... I walked through the valley of death...

I've done it twice.... maybe 3 times.... So you would

think words would not bother me.... But the tearing

down of others because you are insecure or have

gone through something does not make it okay...

Luckily his words didn't push me to the edge... to

make me want to end my life.... If it had happened

last year... many of you would be sitting at my

funeral...I don't get what I did to him to deserve

the meanest. He isn't the only one... I get some of

the nastiest, rudest dm's and messages.... The

words are disgusting... The plot twist is most of

them are from fake pages so y'all are hiding behind

a fake picture.... I do respect the ones that tell me

those things from their actual page so I know

what they look like... Thank you for the

projection, thank you for revealing your insecurities

Thank you for trying to tear me down because I am

stronger than you, smarter than you, prettier than

you.... I am who you want to be... I look how you wish

you looked or could pay to imitate.... I love my

naturalness.... From my most beautiful flaws to my

most gorgeous features... Even on my most ratchet

days I'm still better in more than 3 ways whether

physical or intellectual.... Men and women tear me

down.... But I suppose they hate me... Is that called

a 'hater'?? Thank you for being a fan if you are a

hater.... I'm flattered.... Love me or hate me.... I'm

just happy I'm on your mind... Tearing me down

won't ever elevate you to where I am... If you

could imitate the exact me, you still are

beneath me.. Continue to dm me or message me

*KISSES*